New Beginning

We have new beginnings all the time;

This is not one dark forever.

There are glimpses of light beyond this light---

Golden on the horizon outside my window,

Golden on the sun with its first sunshine on a new day,

Golden on the calm air this morning,

Turbulent air other mornings, other lifetimes.
I cannot imagine infinity.

A friend’s mother used to tell her it was everything outside,

The margarine container we know as time and space.

We are lidded from it tucked into this plastic world,

Where we make fake butter

And decorate the container with a picture of a cow anyway.
Yet there is light some mornings---evenings,

Even---when sun and dawn and night are one, a trinity of shadow.

Driving at twilight is most dangerous, they say; it seems lighter than it is,

And cows come near the roads on their way to green meadows and cool water,

as we are also on our way somewhere, speedingby in our lidded containers,

trying to propel ourselves into infinity.

How is it?

How is it that my mind can wander
yet always be reminded of you---

Little things pointing me in your direction.
I want to tell you what I saw today: sunlight

Tilted across the field,
Illuminating every dust particle and insect.

All the flaws were beautiful.

I want to remember what I thought yesterday,
And that dream I had last night---was it in color?
I want to tell you before I forget,
I want you toremember for me.

I want to tell you about the deer in the field,
The flat tire,the fire, the mosquitoes and the rain.

I want to tell you about my bad moods,
My loss of humor, my pain.
I am not always irresistible;

I wonder how you put up with me;
I wonder why we are friends.
You must have things to tell me too.

Do I love Him?

Do I love HIM?
I don't know.
He was once my dream.
But dream and love is not the same after all.
Dreams are beautiful.
Love is the real thing.

Hello Me

Good morning did you sleep well?
And did you wake up well?
Does the light and the wind,
the air and the smell,all feel brand new?
Is each and every cell in your body are wake now?
Today who you are is who you are today.
You are a newer version of me...
Myself ten years from now...
That's so far away for me that
I can't even begin imagine.
Am I alone? Or is there's a wonderful
person next to me?
Well knowing me I'm sure I am troubling
a lot of different people.
But that's all right.There's no problem.
I will always be cheering you on.
And now for a big cheer...
from the bottom of my heart.
Go...go..me,me..me..do your best.
Me..me..me..Don't lose,don't lose.
I'm am no longer here...But I'm here today.
And I'll always be cheering for you right here...
Cheering for you my only self.

.Sleeping

I'm not interested in boy's who
have a lot of people chasing after Him."
And I also don't have interest in boy's
that have no one is chasing after Him. "

Sleeping is what exactly I'm interested in >"

In solitude

I needed to be in the bush.
There I find solitude and beauty and purity and focus.
That's where my heart lies.
I would sit by myself in the middle of the nowhere.
With the sky's starry vault overhead,
And simply listen to the great silence around me.

Memories

Are memories supposed to be sweet?
Or it is painful?
I think this must be God's test.
The present me is a bit by bit
understanding...
So I'll be patient.
And take a look back at
those sweet memories instead.
So I could go on...

Long Run

Where you can HIDE
When you were running away from
YOURSELF...

I had to get away,
I needed to leave this place
as far behind me as I could.
I just kept going and going untill
the highway run out.
And when I looked up I was alone,
And there was nothing but an ocean
in front of me.
And since I afraid to swim,
I just stayed.